untitled

I was clenching my teeth
My hands in fists
My stomach churns
felt like acidic burn
My eyes stung
Teardrop fallen
My ears deafen

Rips my chest
Tears my heart
Slash its part
and i held it out

But nothing hurts
Cause it felt like home
Cause I owe it to me
I owe it to him

Lying down
on the wooden floor
Close my eyes
and drown in my thoughts
Another dream emerges
I smile..
because there lies my life
a field with a big tree
stars and moon the roof
because the sun doesn't shine anymore

Awaken by wall crashes down
hard on my head
But it still does not hurt
It brings comfort
It releases past hurts

It brings me to life
Makes me realize
that what is past
Cannot be brought to last

I haven't lost the battle
I've only survived one