Welcoming 2009

I am welcoming 2009 with a new attitude, a new mood, and I hope this new mood or attitude could result to a happy ending this year. (Yes! I still want to get married by December 2009)…

A few days before the New Year, I was feeling down. I was heartbroken. Someone i cared so much went ahead and rammed me flat. I was devastated. God knows i never thought i would ever feel that way after 4 years ago. But then, one fine day, I woke up and realized that I have survived 4 break ups in the past.. I mean, this recent crisis wasn’t even a break up. Things haven’t even started and there I was begging for his mercy? What the hell was I thinking….?? Oh my! That really sad girl a few days ago was not Shuana. Far from being who Shuana is. Seriously, Shuana gets up and moves on. This is not an arrogant statement. I have been through so much in life and I honestly think that the recent one that I had, does not even qualified as a crisis. Nope! It was just a passing. Yup! Just a passing. It was not worth my time being sad over something that could never happened. I do not worry about worries. I have no worries and this guy thought he could actually steal that away from me.. well, I actually let him, at first.. but senses came knocking in my head soon enough to make me realize that I have a life to live, a mission to accomplish, and no time to waste. I strongly believe that God has reason for not letting things worked the way I wanted. God has other plans for me. The guy may not be the one for me but the real one is still out there, looking for me.. and I never doubted that.

Some may think this is a denial. I beg to differ. Denial is something you felt when you lie about the truth. How do you know I am not lying? Again, go read my past entries and you will know who the real Slim Shady is.

I don’t hate anyone. Not my ex boyfriends, not anyone. It is something I do not possess. Although this new guy has hurt my feeling, I do not hate him. Hating is a waste of time. I have stopped hating people realizing that I could not go on with my live if I don’t have the capacity to forgive and forget.

2009 is a new year and I have new resolutions to live for. I will not let what happened towards the end of 2008 affects my 2009. What happened in 2008, stays in 2008. I am not bringing it forward. Account is closed on 31/12/2008.

I will smile and laugh more, have more fun, go out and meet new people and always be nice to everyone, even to my enemy.. hmmm.. if I am nice, the chances are I won’t have any enemies. That’s good, ain’t it? 2009 is going to be a happy year for me and I will make sure of that. I’ll spread the happiness to people around me. Life is too short to regret of the past.

But come June 2009, let’s do some assessment, shall we? J

I love me… love me so much!

Thank you God for Your blessings.. Yup! We still have a date 5 times a day, unless of course, you-know-what won’t let me.

This is me.. Welcome 2009. Enjoy your stay.